Abdullah Talha Furkan Öztürk:
You are no turtle and I am not your shell.
I can’t protect you from your image.
Only your eyelids are trapping you inside your hell.
You try to climb the stairs but you fall into your nightmares.
First thing first, you do not trust.
You are a security woman, trying to end the mystery of lies by walking in the dark.
You love controlling others.
There is no mystery in that, we all do want to control our dreams.
When I go quite, I go to watch a magician in the underground world.
It is like hell.
I don’t know if he is your father,
But he pours me a whiskey.
After the second cup, he tricks my vision.
It goes double.
Trust me if you can, it is hard to find a way back home when one staggers.
You see, this dream is foolish, it is not making you happy.
Here, there are questions but no answers.
Nobody can walk to an unknown destination.
And this is the mystery of finding somewhere new.
The truth is you can’t.
Not if you let it find you.
Not all the hearts can carry you safely.
You know it.
You know that most of them are already broken.
Like yours.
And the shards can hurt you.
A good image of life can only come after the old scary image is destroyed.
How willing are you to destroy your suspicion?
Destroy your intuition and your heart?
It is not a home anymore.
A heart without trust is like a leaking roof.
Who can accommodate there?
Nobody can.
In order to build a new house in the same land, you must destroy the old one.
So, burn the pages.
Craft new ones.
Write on them.
Write until you face your hell.
Let what is deep inside you come out.
Let it strengthen you until you build your own home!
Furkan:
When a star is hung over the sky for the first time,
She roars like a bravely founded kingdom of a lioness.
Timelessness.
This is her new identity.
No.
Her name hasn’t changed at all.
She is still Seren, though not the old Seren.
Old Seren would lay down all her love for her lover.
She was a way-maker for stars, but she wasn’t a star.
She was not equal or one with her lover.
And Wind from the North has brought her news of ascension.
With the wind her mind was now serene.
Her spirit lifted up itself from the ground,
Raising her look right onto the sky.
She followed what she saw, a bright morning star.
After getting close enough, she felt his heart.
There was no going back.
His heart was burning her,
Like a moth to a flame.
He tested her spirit.
She was pure and honest.
She was at the centre of the fire.
It didn’t burn her but made her one with Him.
And this is the story of how she became the star.
From Seren of Türkiye to Seren of Cymru.
Now it is her turn to shine.
“Let your words be light.
Write.”
Gülseren Aslan:
I need to write, to let my words be light.
Yet my words have never been enough to express how I feel.
Though unintentionally, they always silence what my heart truly want to scream.
Are you brave enough to dive into that deep world of my heart?
Are you patient enough to see me open up myself?
I know you love gently when you love,
I know you, you treat the one you love as a work of art when you love.
But are you willing to love me when I’m an incomplete work?
For I have never felt complete.
I’m never content with myself.
I feel like a piece of art whose artist do not have the motivation to finish up.
I feel like an incomplete work without you around me.
Is it insecurity or love? Or obsession?
Have I become too obsessed with you that I always forget that
I had existed before you?
Furkan:
Reading is love when it is your writing.
Sometimes silence speak louder than the words.
Sometimes to hear your heartbeat is all I need to end my loneliness.
Your writing fills my emptiness with a beautiful manifestation of your innocence.
We are emotional beings. Too emotional to express our love.
The true love gets anxious, its tongue slips.
The words stutter as they come out, and the image of the world blackens out.
The heart is in chaos in the times of love. The feelings overwhelm us.
But an honest lover is also honest to his love. He is a fearful brave.
I am a fearful brave. I am brave when I only fear to lose you and your love.
Love without fear is void, and without wisdom, bravery ends in death.
Now that you know me, how shaky I get when I express my feelings,
Know also that I am your curious explorer.
I want to see you open up like a golden chest, I know you have gems.
And the best of them is your heart.
Putting your heart into my heart is where I want to protect it.
This is how gentle I can be.
My chest and what is in it will be yours.
As long as you give love and support, my heart becomes your fortress.
I don’t know how you know me, it looks as if you have already invaded my castle.
You are right in the things you know.
You are also right that you are a work of art.
The beauty you see in my writings is the reflection of your beauty.
And I love you verily.
Let me tell you a secret.
This secret can only be revealed in between the lovers:
No art is complete.
One day, every flowers fade away.
There is death in life, and it is the truth.
Leave your fears to me, our task is not to fear death or think about it.
Our way is to live until we live no more.
As long as we forget about our own existence to love for one another,
We can make each other live as long as we can breathe.
The art is only complete when art is for the lover.
To share or receive it can make our heart complete.
It is only then our lives are complete.
Aslan:
Once my soul was a chest, it used to protect the gems I had in my spirit.
Yet, all of them turned into coal.
All the colourful precious stones faded away.
Now, I have tiny dark coals laying inside the ashes of my cigs.
My soul is covered with fumes and dust.
I bear no strength to wipe them away.
I yearn for the purity of my soul, yet, I have to live with the darkness inside me.
For there is no one to reach out and ask for comfort.
You trapped me inside the basement of your heart and there is no way out.
I cannot even see a light.
I invaded your castle with no intention of harm but you locked me inside the darkest dungeon of it.
It is still you I ask help from, for I am too weak to help myself and find a way out.
Furkan:
No soul can be a chest to itself,
All souls must mourn for one another.
And the coals take time to turn into diamond.
They just need a suitable condition.
The strangest of them all is how important dust is.
Dust proves time is moving in the right direction;
It may be the smallest of all,
But its presence is ever significant.
So, the life is ever complete when all the dusts are present.
Hear me, a mud is a place for lotus to blossom,
Ashes are the carbons of the life.
Hence, all the lights can only shine in darkness.
Whether in light or darkness, receiving love is the food of our soul.
We are weak and this is our strength.
Our neediness is our bonding.
Our chains what sets us free in the end.
Now, feel the walls of my heart!
In darkness is the purest.
Look at the babies in wombs.
Look at the butterflies before they go out from their cacoon.
Look at the eggs, the life!
The purity comes our when the cells are destroyed.
Don’t ask my help to bring you out.
It would pain me, I would not let you go out.
Plus, you don’t need caesarean section.
Learn to pierce my heart as lovers do with an arrow.
Type our initials at its each end.
Be my baby and learn to cry to me.
If you don’t hurt me, I can’t know how hurt you are.
All the experience in life brings new scars.
It is not about staying scarless that is the pure.
All fathers would want to know who hurt their daughters.
I am not your real father, but I am a candidate for becoming your children’s father.
A father must go inside the mother.
Seeding is digging and placing it in.
Not always where we think inside is the real inside. No.
Piercing my heart will bring you inside upon your exit.
My heart is greater than the universes and I know it.
Going out from it will hurt you ever more.
That’s why as long as you are weak, you must stay inside
To stay out from the danger.
Until a lizard gets stronger, it must stay inside the egg.
Look at all these pure creatures inside something, waiting their time to shine!
When conditions are right, when it is your time,
You will surely pierce my heart. And I will be proud of you for your doing it.
Don’t forget, the bravest are the babies who dare to come into the world
When elders are crying to go back to their mother’s womb.
Don’t go back to what is old. Dare and move forward.
Dare and explore!
Aslan:
I asked you to help me clear my mind and soul that have been covered with darkness.
I didn’t know your words would be that strong.
I didn’t know they would inspire me to break my chains.
Your impact on me cannot be denied.
All I needed was an inspiration to chase the light that would lead to my salvation.
Now, I see a way out, but I need patience
Like babies waiting inside their mothers’ wombs to come to life.
I remember you telling me to be patient until we clear our path
To live the love we have been dreaming of.
I am patient.
I have been waiting inside the cage all by myself for you to come back
And turn this cage into a cozy house.
Am I worthy of your love and loyalty after all these sacrifices I made?
I tried so hard to erase you but I couldn’t.
The more I tried, the more I hated you,
But I always stayed true to our love.
Did you?
Furkan:
Don’t think I am a saviour, I had my own mistakes
When you had your own mistakes.
Mistakes can never be erased, but look towards the bright side:
The truth can never be erased, too!
And the truth is, we are all humans.
We make mistakes.
From our scars we learn to heal others.
The more we wake up,
The more we sleep.
In between nightmares and dreams, here I AM.
I see you in both of them.
And I desire you to see me, too.
In my dreams,
You are worthy of my love because my love says so.
It says, “you are forever forgiven” when you make mistakes.
In my nightmares,
My love asks, “am I worthy of your love and loyalty”
When everything is already sacrificed
And the world is crumbling.
I have seen us together in my dreams.
I have seen you die in my arms in my nightmares.
In between these worlds,
My love stayed true when in life and death.
It never saw you without me,
It never saw me without you,
It always saw us together.
Aslan:
Perhaps we both stayed true to our love,
But it does not concern me anymore.
For what value love has when it is not shown?
It’s always been easy for you to say that you love me.
You have always loved me with your words.
You have always showed affection when you craved for intimacy.
Can you say that you loved me truly?
Why can’t you see me when I only need your compassion?
It is like your heart is frozen and I am trying so hard to warm it.
Why is it so hard to break the ice that covers your heart?
How long should I wait for you to show me your love?
Not with insincere words, but with your honest actions.
You refure to give, you are always the taker.
You have taken my love and soul.
I am left with emptiness for you feed off of my soul.
I do not ask for much in return,
All I am really asking for is you!
Furkan:
You know my weaknesses pretty well!
I am from the high mountains,
Here it only snows.
Nature doesn’t give much,
It is hard to live here.
I have become tough like wild thorns.
The ice is hard to break through,
The fruits are thorny,
And it is hard to go down to the Mediterranean Sea.
Tell me how I am supposed to give
When I have seen nothing is giving?
I have become a beast to survive in the cold desert.
I have devoured every being I saw to get stronger.
But you, my love, to talk to you,
I tweezed my thorns in pain and set my compass to your heart.
I followed it.
I know, I have nothing to give because to reach you I have lost everything.
In void, here I AM!
When you ask me, I am always present.
Will you like me as a present?
On Valentine’s day, on your birthday, on our avowal day,
I am willing to give all myself to you.
Will you take me to your home?
Will the tables turn?
Will you go out from my heart,
And bring me into your warm heart?
Will you show me what your fire is?
Ah, you are hot…
Aslan:
I am as hot as the hellfire because of your love.
Are you willing to burn in the hot flames of my heart?
If you are, you will be the most precious gift I have ever had.
You worth more than diamonds.
Your light shines brighter than the shiniest stars in the darkness of the night.
When you are ready, your light will collide with the hot flames of my heart.
We will merge into each other.
Only then your ice will melt and you will not belong to the high mountains anymore.
Let the heat of my heart ignite you.
Do not be afraid to become one with me.
I want to drown in the depths of you.
I dream of a perfect universe where we are intertwined, living happily ever after.
Even when we die, we ought to die like Baucis and Philemon.
Bound together.
Entwining into eternity.
Furkan:
Oh, yes! I am so willing, I am so ready!
Burn me, and wild us into one.
I am going inside your heart,
Kiss me upon my entrance.
As stars when we are colliding with one another,
We will make our dreams come true!
When we are exploded by the collision,
The kiss and our eyes will be our meeting point.
From nothing a baby will come out,
Fulfilling the dreams of us both!
Our baby is the perfect universe.
Our love will manifest through her.
Even when we die she will continue to make us stay alive.
Her heart is where we will be engraved.
She will water our bodies where we are intertwined.
Admiring our love to one another as she grows up,
For her our love is so unique, there is no match.
Our bond is passionate
For we are compassionate.
Let my fingers twirl into yours.
Let my arms embrace you verily.
We are eternal, inseparable lovers now.
Aslan:
What now?
We are united like the breeze of fall and the yellow leaves of trees.
Whenever you blow, I fall down to the cold soil.
I have bruises all over my body. I am torn apart.
I always have to wait for you to pick me up from the ground.
I have to wait until the gloomy cloudy in your sky leave.
The dark clouds, heavy rain and the relentless cold must go
So that the sun come and warm your heart.
I belong to the green flowery trees.
Take that yellow leave and put it back to its place
For I must blossom to give you my love.
Furkan:
We both know now is love.
But we love to stall the plot like all authors do.
Plotting against love is the writing of a coy lover.
This autumn you are creating is telling us to slow down.
And you are absolutely right, love can’t be rushed.
Here, take it, I am taking off my lover’s clothes
Which are the breeze and clouds.
Please, give me, I am wearing my doctor’s coat.
Its colour is sky blue.
My stethoscope is sun orange.
Let me first treat you.
Show me your bruises, show me your cries.
“Where does it hurt the most?”
Here, my beautiful lady, take this pill of love.
Your scars are so deep and your cries are priceless.
Let me ease your pain with a special chamomile tea.
I collected these flowers on the way to you.
I was rolling down from the rocks when I held them dearly.
They could not stop me from rolling down.
Whatever I plucked, I put them into my pockets.
They carried my pain to you.
Drink it,
And wear the crown I have made with the same flowers.
Tell me if you don’t look like a daisy in the mirror now!
Aslan:
I know you are the only cure for me.
But I am a patient who is not ready for the treatment.
I want you to be my comfort place before being a remedy.
I want to see your wounds, too, before you start healing me.
Share your remorse, your sorrows, your dark side with me.
I know we are alike.
I know you are the only one who will truly understand me.
I know you have seen the wicked face of life.
We shall touch and kiss each other’s scars so that we can become one.
Do not hesitate to show your weakness.
I am the one who will accept you howsoever,
I will never walk away…
Furkan:
My dark side is too dark for you to see.
You have to be blinded but I don’t know if your love is that strong to me.
Without love, all my faults, scars, and weaknesses may scare you away.
You tell me to not hesitate, but you know deep inside you might regret it.
Are you still willing if I am to take your sight and take your breath away?
If so, close the curtains because here, no light must leave to tell the others
What you are about to witness.
Are you ready to embrace this darkness?
Aslan:
Behind the closed doors and curtains we shared joyful laughs and bitter cries.
We did unspeakable things to each other.
Our home became hell and heaven.
We hurt each other, got back together and then kept living the same nightmares.
I loved the ups and downs, loved the thrill…
One day, you loved me so hard, one day you were so cold.
There were painful times when I felt invisible in the presence of you.
I was overwhelmed by your ego.
You made me forget about all of my dreams and aspirations in my life.
My life became wholly yours. I don’t have a life anymore.
I used to have stars in my eyes, you took the light and life away from them.
Now, I am in the darkness.
Holding your hand and letting you lead me inside the depths of it…
I embraced the uncertainty of your darkness.
I closed my eyes and my mouth to be completely blind and mute.
I don’t have to see and talk anymore.
For you saw for me, you talked for me.
I became a puppet in your hands.
You pulled my strings and created the woman of your dreams.
Have I become her, my love?
Do you love me now?
If that’s what you want I can wear her good long hair over mine.
I can wear her makeup to look more like her.
I can wear fancy clothes and act like her in them…
Will you love me now that I have changed for you?
Furkan:
Here the darkness falls over you.
It is harsh and it is true.
You would never be my dream woman.
And the dream woman will never be mine.
Her stay in my dreams is her existence.
Since you became like her,
You both lost yourself and lost me…
I didn’t want her to be my real woman,
You were my real woman.
Look at you now, nothing real is left.
All is nothing but fake.
Her long hair is not yours.
Her hair colour doesn’t suit you.
And your makeup is making you lose your beauty and health, too!
You did all these for what?
To lose me?
I will never love you when you have changed for me.
I only loved you because you were who you are.
When you lost yourself, you also lost me.
For I was yourself.
Aslan:
I will never be the old me again.
Not for you to love me.
Once a good girl is gone bad, she is gone forever.
I will not shed a tear for you anymore.
I will not wait for you till 5 am in the morning.
Awake, face washed with tears,
Glass in one hand full of your favourite wine,
Lost in my favourite song that you cannot stand.
You never loved me for who I am.
You never cared about my interests.
You never tried to love the things I love.
I tried and tried but couldn’t make you love this woman
Who was crazy for you.
Are you proud of your creation?
You created a heroine who will haunt you till your last breath.
Loving you had a price, and I paid my life for you.
It is your turn to pay now, pay for the things that you have done to me.
You will face the wrath of your lovely girl, whom you took for granted.
Furkan:
Bring it all.
I am ready to face your wrath.
Whether you die or kill me, I will not flinch.
I have loved you, I still do love you.
But you are so insecure in the way you perceive life,
And I can’t change that.
I didn’t want to put you in a specific shape,
I just wanted to show you the world.
I was your travel buddy, your dear partner.
Instead of living with me, you put yourself into debt.
The debt is you thought you must pay something to receive my love
When my love was only unconditional.
This is why you face my darkness.
It is what you wanted.
I wanted to show you the beautiful cities,
Colourful skies and flowers.
However, all you wanted to see was the rotten apples.
Here eat this poison then.
In order for you to see your own mistake,
I have to let you taste the poisoned fruit.
Upon eating you will realise your mistake, but you will fall.
How to bring you back to life, I have no power to know.
I am not God, nor an ubermensch.
I am just your basic lover, and now, I am fearing to lose you.
Aslan:
When I first fell in love,
I did not know that I would end up being trapped inside this darkness.
I could never imagine the love of my life would turn out to be my murderer.
You murdered my dreams, the bright stars in my sky, the smile on my face…
I wanted to go to those beautiful cities with you and make love in each of them.
We could have slept together under the colourful sky among flowers.
I did not want the poison.
I wanted the kind of flowers that you have never brought to me.
Perhaps you will bring those flowers to my grave.
I will still be happy while lying under the soil.
For whenever I see you, I get goosebumps.
What you still can do to my body is just crazy.
Whenever you touch me, I feel like I reach the peak of a mountain,
From where water falls…
Climb that mountain my love.
Find my fountain behind the hills and dive into my waves.
Drink my holy water till you suffocate.
Furkan:
No baby knows that they must die when they come into being.
Everyone dies where their love is.
You have to die, I have to die.
We all have to die.
Why do you fear me when I am your murderer,
Am I not where your love is, and who you love?
We are still young.
We have time until we die.
We don’t have to see life as a prison.
I can bring you the kinds of flowers before we die.
Just let me be your soil,
Lay yourself under me or over me.
Let me fcalm your goosbumps with my touches.
Let us be together at the climax!
I climb your mountain and you climb mine.
You drink my water of life and I drink yours.
Let’s mix our waters together and create
Before we get old and dry!
The only way to live is to eat and drink,
Don’t make me fast because of your absence.
I don’t want to suffer until your love shocks my heart.
And within a moment all the images of life are gone.
This darkness must wait.
Let’s talk about darkness after we die,
And live what is light, what eases our soul.
Aslan:
We shall leave the darkness behind,
Hold my hand so that I can feel stronger to take a step further.
I want yours to meet my healed version.
A brand new me, who left everything behind.
It’s high time we cherished our love.
We didn’t appreciate the value of each other enough.
Look me in the eye and tell me that you love me.
Upon hearing your relieving words, my heart will start beating again.
I starve for the pure red blood, I need it in my veins
So tell me that you love me, let me become alive again.
You needn’t fast, drink my blood and feed yourself.
I am the only one who can feed you.
For I am the water you need, the air you breathe.
You know I am the one that gives you life!
Furkan:
I am holding your hand,
Let’s just jump to the other side.
The grass is greener, the sky is clearer here.
We are new forever, living in this beautiful present moment.
And this moment is you.
I am looking at you.
Please know forever: “I love you!”
Let your heart beat.
Let me hear it.
How beautiful is its sound.
You are so alive.
Let your blood turn into our children.
Then let me feast with my children,
Drinking your breast milk
As you are Lord’s Table.
It is peaceful to suck from your nipples.
It is glorious to know that you are my children’s mother.
You are my woman, my love!
You are the most beautiful scene I have ever seen.
I love you and only you forever.
Do love me and the children you conceive.
This is life and this is how we can feel alive.
A family is love and life.
You are my family, you are my soul.
I kiss you and kiss you ever more.
Aslan:
If we are going to start a family, let it be glorious.
Bring your body closer to mine.
Let our bodies touch and dance in joy.
Then we will welcome the golden fruits of our mergence.
Will you worship the hips that cracked to give birth to our children?
They will be the real treasure we have been searching everywhere to find.
Then we will realise it was never the diamonds or pearls,
But the sacred family was the real priceless wealth.
I am ready to swim in the ocean of wealth and joy.
Let’s go far from the shore.
I want to dive into the deepest part of that ocean, where we can build our empire.
Let me take you there so that no one would find us.
Let us thrive together.
Furkan:
The most glorious and holy thing on earth will be our family.
I will worship you who bear me our lovely children.
I will worship your cracked hips and saggy bellies,
Your veiny breasts and your wrinkled face,
Your everything will be my holy.
No matter how old it gets,
Even when you die I will continue to praise you.
You will forever be my children’s only wife.
My wife will be your name.
All your cracks and scars will be my pride.
I will kiss and wash your feet.
I will always make sure to touch you and love you.
When I am stressed or broken,
I know you will take away all my burdens.
Seeing our children will end all my pain.
I will live for our children,
And I will live for my wife who gives me these presents.
Their presence will be our ultimate gift to each other.
I had nothing to give but I now know what I will give.
A family is what I will give And this is my promise.
I am all yours and pulling your hand towards me.
Come, my love, nobody will find a better love.
Let us prove our holiness.
Let them see how I kneel in front of you.
Not because of a cheap ring, no,
But because of a burning desire to serve you forever.
This is why I will kneel. Just tell me when you can come.
I will draw a red carpet in front of your path.
I will throw roses over your head.
Come my love, come.
Aslan:
No solitaire ring in the world can be more valuable than your love.
Not just the roses but all the flowers in the world cannot compare to your love.
Kneel in front of me only if you love me unconditionally.
Promise me you will never lose the respect that you have for me.
Promise me you will always love me like you loved me in the beginning of our love story.
Love is ought to grow over time and we ought to hold onto each other tightly.
Hold me in your arms, for that is where I belong to.
I feel home whenever I am with you, please do not take this from me.
I love the feeling of safety when I am around you.
Don’t you ever let me be all alone in this cruel world.
Just hold me tight and never let me go.
Furkan:
Now that I am kneeling in front of you
And promising you to love like this forever,
Will you let me hold you up?
I want to carry you from the archway of our home,
I want to throw you into the bed
And wrinkle your bridal gown.
As we make love,
Our love shall grow older.
Trust between us shall get stronger.
Let me spoon you into your dreams
And never let you be alone
Even in your dreams.
Yes, I want to sleep with you for the rest of my life.
And I want to wake up to you
To forget about this cruel world forever.
Yes, your smile is worth forgetting about the world.
Please don’t get bored or sweat
When I hug you forever.
Tell me how we must travel,
To reach one another.
Call my name and let me hear your call.
I will follow your voice,
I will trace your rosy smell.
I will know which are your footsteps.
Yes, I want to know all your prints.
I want to memorize all that there is.
Your birth marks, your scars,
Your curves, and your beauty marks.
Let me capture them to my mind.
Let me record your voice into my heart.
Arouse my senses, guide me to you.
Let me feel your aura.
By my magnetic field,
Attract me into you.
Let this spiritual journal
Turn into what is real.
Spread your words all around me
Until I find you.
Our spirits are complete,
They are one already.
It is just a matter of time
Until our physical essences meet for the last time.
This time there shall never be
Separataion or parting.
This last time must be the last time I am missing you.
Then we shall miss one another no more,
But accede together and forever.
Aslan:
If you believe in the existence of eternal love, never leave me.
For I do believe that eternal love exists but only if I live that love with you.
Once we meet, there’s no going back.
You shall love me to the moon and back and never let me go.
Our spirits are together in this mortal world and our mortal bodies will meet in eternal life.
We will meet at infinity.
Only there we shall be truly happy.
For there is no separation or parting for us there.
It is the place where we will have nowhere else to go.
It is the final destination.
When we have nowhere else to go, can you leave me? No.
With the relief of knowing that you are all mine,
I will love you and cater to you forever.
I am ready to serve you. I know all you need is me.
Come and take what you need. I am all yours.
Whatever you want, I am here to provide.
Just wrap your arms around me and whisper,
“I love you.”
Furkan:
Even in autumn when all the leaves wither,
I am not leaving you.
My love, you are believing in truth.
I cannot say more but approve
Your beautiful words and rejoice.
But let me correct one thing:
We have no final destination.
In eternity there is nowhere else to arrive but to you.
You are my eternal.
Wash me thoroughly with your
Joyful tears.
Wash my erect temple with your
Pleasure water.
You serve but you are not a servant.
You are the ruler of the temple.
Like a good queen,
You take care what is fully yours.
I am all yours.
Whenever you want,
I am here to praise you.
As I wrap my arms and hold you up,
Lock your legs around my waist
And scream with pleasure.
As I whisper into your ears:
“I love you!” and kiss your neck,
Roll your eyes towards the sky
And proclaim your sublime!
Let us go ecstasy forever and ever more.
Together we are the most glorious!
Shall this image be carved into all the worldly statues.
May the artist chisel us naked together.
And this is art.
We art.
Aslan:
The moment our bodies attract each other like a magnet,
I will wrap my legs around you and pull you in.
We will close our eyes and get lost in the moment of pleasure.
As if we are addicts, we will see the colorful sky inside our mind the moment we close our eyes.
Send me your sins, I am ready for the divine exchange.
This is a form of worship.
Every inch of my body is ready for you to worship.
Gentle touches will turn into rough kisses and bites.
Days will turn into nights, moon will take over the sun
And we will still be inside our chamber like fire and gunpowder.
Light the match and set us on fire.
I am not afraid of the flames, for burning with you will make me high.
I want to lose track of time when I’m with you.
Furkan:
Hold my bong, I am lighting the match.
When I count from one to three,
Inhale.
Let it in.
Now, let it stay in.
We are crackheads now.
You have the crack and I have the head.
The clock has no hands now.
We burnt the time down.
This is the ritual.
We are meant to sin together.
We are meant to destroy the whole world around us.
There is no setting left as the time is gone.
OUR CREATION!
“Let there be God in the image of US”
And God exists.
We suck each other’s tongue,
I inhale what you exhale
You inhale what I exhale.
We inhale then exhale together as our hips move back and forth.
My left hand are on your perky tits.
My right hand are behind your hips.
This sin is the most holy sacrifice.
Look how daring we are
For our love is absolute.
To exalt one another we have given up heavens.
To fulfil each other,
We washed God with our sins.
Look how God is baptized by our cums.
Look at the mess we had.
Look.
And exhale.
How was your trip, love?
How beautiful we have sinned!
xoxoxo…
Aslan:
We are the angels that are expelled from heaven
I concede that I have sinned.
Yet it was the purest of the pure sins.
God was in the room with us while your stream was flowing into mine.
We bathed in the stream and confessed our sins.
We were baptized inside each other.
The more you dived inside, the clearer I felt.
As if inside the hellfire, we were screaming so loud
That we woke the angels up in the heaven.
Little did they know, they were the screams of pleasure…
I could never get enough of you.
I wanted those moments to last forever but we stopped.
The moment I opened my eyes, my consciousness struck me.
I did not know where I was..
A heavy feeling of regret started to overwhelm me.
Furkan:
We were ascended so high.
When we got back into normal life,
We face the truth:
No sex lasts forever.
No ecstasy was permeable against the truth.
And the truth is nothing lasts forever.
We had a long journey.
From ascension to descension it took us three hours.
Naturally, our bodies are fatigued.
The regret is due to the loss of energy.
To gain a new life, we have given up our life.
To create something new, we have destroyed ourselves.
To reach heaven, we have reached hell.
To rise, we have fallen.
We had everything just a moment ago,
We had nothing now.
All our liquids were gone.
We were both emptied.
We need to recover, love.
After each climax, we must rest together.
Come.
Drink this cup of water.
Stay.
Let’s sleep now.
Go.
When we woke up, lets go and have breakfast together
Near the bosphorus.
Let’s watch the sea and the horizon
And be thoughtful about what we had done.
We must recover love.
Time is with us now.
It helps us recover.
Aslan:
Nothing lasts forever.
We have come to an end.
We consumed every beautiful feeling together.
We drained each other.
I accepted you with your flaws and all.
I have seen you at your best and worst.
I have seen all your faces, when you loved me and scared me at once.
Now I am a train wreck and recovery is impossible.
Yet I am not gonna make the same old mistakes.
I am not gonna sin the same old sins.
I am never gonna love again.
I am never gonna trust again.
I will never let you fool me again.
Yes, I will sleep until I forget everything.
But I will not wake up with you.
I will watch the sea in the summertime when the water is so blue.
And I will not think about what we have done with you.
It will only give me hope to start over.
By myself. I must go far away.
To a place that you will never find me.
And you should take good care of yourself.
Never drink again,
Never smoke again,
Never repeat the old mistakes again.
Do not be so hard on her like you did to me.
Be gentle and loving.
Try not to hurt her and yourself…
Furkan:
We did not come to an end.
Breakfasts are for a new day.
I know you are still tired from last night,
I know you are still questioning our existence.
But it is better if you just take a piece from the honey.
Sweet.
After every end comes a new beginning.
Taste it.
Fries are crisp as our love.
Eggs are hot.
Our tea is in a pot.
Don’t be a butter,
Don’t slip away from my sight.
I don’t want anybody else,
The woman next to our table is
Not as beautiful as my wife.
I don’t smoke, drink or gamble.
I don’t cheat, leave you or lie.
I am only hard for you, love.
I can’t love others.
No.
All women who want me need to be hurt.
They all must know I am yours.
Nobody can buy me or get me
Except death.
If you want to hate somebody,
Hate the death.
Maybe one day you kill
Death.
Maybe after our death we meet again.
Let’s be hopeful.
Look at the sky, it is so blue.
Look at the sea, it is so blue.
Look at my eyes, they are your blue.
Aslan:
I have no power to defeat death.
When the time comes it will take you from me or me from you.
Yet I am not anxious, for I know I will see you on the other side.
Everything will come to an end.
When it’s over, you will see me on the other side.
Toast to the new beginnings.
Dark past will be forgotten,
Let’s drink to the bright future.
Heaven cannot wait for me,
I must go.
I will be bathing in the holy water,
Drinking wine from the holy grail, feasting, celebrating…
And I will be waiting for you.
I will be the only thing you look for
When your soul leaves your body and you honour Heaven.
Furkan:
After every dark passage there must be light.
If not how did we end up living?
Our power against death is simple,
Even death is not eternal.
This is the rare blessing of transients.
Whether from this end of the dark passage we know there is surely light,
Or whether after life,
We will be seeing each other’s faces in clear light.
Here is my grail, fill it to its brim.
Let’s cheer our cups up into the sky
And celebrate this beautiful view
Before our breakfast ends.
There is nothing more heavenly, love,
Then when I am with you.
From each end, from the darkest passage,
I love you.
Aslan:
Whether in darkness or light,
Wherever I’m with you, it’s a thing to celebrate.
Every moment I spend with you is a thing to celebrate.
I rejoice everytime I see you or even hear your voice.
Time is meaningless when we get together, for it goes by so fast.
Only thing that makes me upset is that
The time we are together always comes to an end.
Separation is the worst part of being with you.
I want to be immortal when I’m with you.
I want the time we spend together to last forever.
Can you make it possible for me?
Can you be with me forever?
Furkan:
Let me bend space and time
To create an eternal life!
I will go and study
What literature can bring.
I know in physics we can’t achieve.
But through our love letters,
We are already there.
Don’t you see how we are eternally together?
It is in our words.
The sound travels around the world,
You mustn’t think it is lost.
The image of our writings
Will be read by many minds.
Minds are universes.
Imagine how our love manifests itself,
Again and again,
In the curves of these little universes.
Don’t underestimate them,
They might be small
But they are eternally conducted.
They will transport our beautiful words from this end of the infinite universe
To that end of it.
Infinitely.
When we die here, we will be born there.
When we die there, we will be born here.
Look at the stars,
Some we see have already died,
Some we never saw have already born.
My star, my shiny gift,
We will shine forever in different locations.
To die to here is to born there.
From a moment to a moment
One dies to be born into the other.
From one setting to the other,
One must die to the old setting
To go into the new one.
To come to me,
You must leave there.
So stand up from your chair
And come sit on my lap.
Let’s see the sun together,
Let’s let it blind us.
Hence in blindness we shall prophesy.
Aslan:
I envy the poets and writers immortality.
All the artists we have never seen live with us through their beautifully crafted works.
You reminded me the power of the words to make us mortal beings immortal.
Our love shall eternal with these love letters.
Our grand grand grandchildren and even the people
Who do not know us shall be captivated by our love upon reading these letters.
When we die, we shall born again in the minds of those people.
I want to leave these precious words when I leave this world..
I will not leave with regrets, for I will meet you in a better place.
I want to leave something to remember, so they will not forget.
They will know that we were here.
We lived, we loved and we died together in joy.
As we move forward to eternity, these words will keep us alive in this ephemeral world.
While the brightness of the sun is blinding us,
While I’m sitting on your lap, and enjoying the beautiful scenery,
They will be reading this billet doux.
Furkan:
In order for them to know
How we really lived, loved and rejoiced,
Our words must be buried together.
If one of us lacks a word from the other
We are doomed to lose.
Unless all of our words together
Published inside one book,
No one will be impressed.
And we will be forgotten.
Even if your sitting on my lap is driving me mad,
Even if I build a tent of love
Here in this beautiful setting,
Yes I know you feel how it is poking you,
Yes I know how you want to ground me, using me as your throne,
Still, we must stand up together
And walk towards the sun.
We must walk together, hand in hand,
Towards the Sun,
Pressing and Publishing Houses into our memories
While we are at walk.
Only this way these memories can together rest in timelessness.
And only then we are both immortals.
Aslan:
Our words shall not be separated like us.
All these enchanting love letters must be united inside a book.
The book that will be the chronicle of our love.
Every memory I share with you will be timeless then.
Now I can walk towards the sun with you, knowing that we have become immortal.
While holding hands, we are walking and the sun is kissing us.
When the sun sets, we should light a fire at the seashore and celebrate that we made it.
We made it through the worst nights and nightmares.
Now all we got is us, and this new chapter of life that is ahead us.
Furkan:
Let’s go camping in nature after we finish our book.
Let’s read verses to our children
When they watch the campfire.
Maybe they can play some music,
Who knows? I don’t know.
All I learnt about playing music is
I learnt how to forget playing it.
The lyrical silence is all there is.
Do you know how to play music for my heart?
And the book we made is called Amor Familia.
Its glory is not like churches,
It is not a result of an invocation of the muses.
At the seashore, we shall make
Our children write our love onto the sand.
We shall build castles around
Our words drawn by their sticks and shovels.
Our kingdom from shores
To the mountains has no end.
However, I fancy don’t like calling it a kingdom.
The kingdom is not only king’s but also my queen’s.
Let’s call it Parendom, the Dome of Parents.
And when our children are born let’s then call it Lovedom.
Lovedom is not like London.
It is pure and it belongs only to our family,
Forever.
Aslan:
I want to build our Lovedom on the shore.
Let’s make a home out of sandcastles.
The waves will knock the walls of our sandcastle,
But the walls will not tumble down.
For they are made with love, our love.
In the mornings the sun will be our light,
And in the evenings the fire that we build
With the power of our love will be our light.
There will never be silence in our Lovedom.
I will play music for your heart and for us.
We will sing together, the most beautiful songs..
Our children will play the instruments for us.
We will have feasts in our serene and fertile castle.
Only thing we starve for will be more happiness and strength.
Furkan:
You know what they say,
They say build your house
Onto a rock
Or you shall whither like sand,
Like dust.
Those that say this also say,
Yes, they say that there are miracles.
Which one to believe?
I believe in my lover and her magic.
I know this sandcastle is our
Miracle.
Nature works with us in its preservation.
All the forces of life come together
Blessing our sand house.
When we have everything,
Love, life, and all that beauty,
To whom we can raise our hands
And pray in agony?
We don’t look up to people, we look at each other’s eyes.
This look is so level,
Everything we share is in balance.
What is a balance between the lovers though
But a limitless limit.
Aslan:
Power of words is undeniable,
But I wish to see your love also through your actions.
Constant compliments warm my heart.
Yet they are not enough.
We do not raise our hands to sky and pray,
Instead, we look at each other’s eyes.
For we believe in each other.
All the power and happiness I have lie in your eyes.
Yet they are not enough.
I do not wish to be loved only by your eyes, your mouth and your pen.
Show me your love, just like you showed me your scars without hesitation.
Only then I can say that he truly loves me.
Love is the only thing that will keep our house together.
You call it Miracle, I call it Love.
Furkan:
My miracle is being with you.
Every day I dream about you.
You call it love but I call it you.
You, you, you.
I can’t be yours without you.
Look at yourself to see how I love you.
What is mine is you.
All I want to be is with you.
Every turn I face you.
Every step leads to you.
I want to be hidden in you.
Take me inside you.
Bury me into you.
If you pull out, I die because of you.
I need no words but you.
You, you, you.
I am delirious of you.
All my dreams and my poems remember you.
It is not possible to ever forget you.
.U.
Aslan:
I was never loved like this before.
You treat me as if I am a jewel.
I will never let your love die.
And you should never let anyone else get to your heart.
I took your love and buried it inside my heart.
It sits in the most precious place of me.
I vowed to take care of it like a lioness takes care of its newborn.
As long as your love is protected inside my heart,
I will always love you.
Do not let anyone take your love from my heart so that I can love you forever.
Furkan:
I know I have not written to you for a while now.
But you knew that I was always inside your heart.
Even in my busy days I was calling your name,
Thinking about you beautifully.
As the foundation of our love is unshakable,
I am sure you will forgive my delay.
I can’t lie to you.
I did not send any letter by post,
It was always within my reach to text you.
But we had to wait,
I had to work for our future.
Sometimes we have to go to work
And that is a separation.
But then after we earn what we can,
We are coming back home.
Now with the things we earned,
We can fortify it and make it more comfortable.
I know, we did not need anything
But each other.
I know you missed me,
I missed you, too!
Now, come to my arms,
Let me cuddle you.
Let us celebrate the things we had done,
The responsibilities we have fulfilled.
A lioness hunts for her family.
You were working hard, too,
And I appreciate your hard work.
We are well earned.
We are wise
If we know these silence brings us together.
Let my silence turn into a storm now,
I want to rain over you.
Take my words and reign over me.
Our kingdom comes with clouds,
It is an arch of colours.
It is glorious to look at
As long as we hold our ground
In patience.
Aslan:
Before I met you I did not know what patience was.
I was never a patient person.
Yet you taught me how to be one.
Your love taught me to wait for hours for your messages,
For days to see you home again.
Now I know love takes time.
I know we have to wait for each other to be in each other’s arms.
We have to hustle day and night to keep our household together
Even when days go by without seeing each other.
No matter what, we both know that we have each other.
You know that I will always be waiting for you at home.
We can be surrounded by others, working hard,
Doing what we have to do, yet at the end of the days, weeks, months…
We will always run to each other.
You are my safe place that
I cannot wait to go every night.
And I know that despite all the hard times we’ve gone and we’ll go through,
You will always have my back.
You will always open that door for me and embrace me.
You love me… flaws and all…
And I love you and I can never erase you.
Our souls are tied to each other.
That is a bond that no one can break.
You are mine and I am all yours.
Furkan:
Since our souls are tied to each other
And our bodies twirled into one giant tree,
I can’t help but think how
Can I chop myself to build
Boats to pass across the seas
To find you.
How close, yet, far are we when
We THINK about it.
Tinkerbell found her solution
By turning her into dust
To fly across the world
To find her lover.
Mecnun dağları deldi,
Through the emptiness of tunnels
He reached his lover.
How can I bend the time?
Oh, how can I explode the Elizabeth Tower?
How can the nations under my feet turn into dust?
My love is burning,
All the towers of the world are
In shambles!
If you don’t come through me now,
I will burn the whole world down.
Ashes.
Desolation.
Deserted.
What should I transmorph into
To ever be with you?
Fuck evolution.
Fuck borders.
Fuck fuckers.
Fuck.
I am more than Noah’s ark.
I am more than the burning bush of Moses.
I am more than all this.
Yet, I am less than your heart.
I have perfected everything
Then caged myself into your tender soul.
Foul. They say.
Aslan:
I know you are willing to do what it takes to find me.
Yet I am not hiding.
As long as you feel your own heartbeat,
You should know that I am with you.
You need no metamorphosis.
You shall not burn the whole world down.
If you want my love and a life with me,
You need to build the perfect place we can be together.
Find me by following your heart, hold my hand and take me home.
To the home where there is no sorrow.
Only joy.
I feel deserted without you.
On my own, I am wandering around the desert without you.
I have nowhere to go, nothing to do, no sense of direction.
Reach me and hold my hand.
Lead me home.
Save me from this bitter feeling of loneliness.
I feel as if someone is turning a knife inside of my heart.
I keep breathing but my body aches.
Come find me and ease my pain.